I passed 50 lbs today!

I haven't written anything in this blog lately.  I'll be honest.  I overheard some negative things being said about me.  I was angry and hurt at first, but I remembered why I was writing this blog and what was important.  I write this blog for me and I am what is important.  Maybe that sounds selfish, but that is how I really feel.  If people aren't interested and don't want to read this then they are free to skip it.  I write this blog as a form of therapy for me I am changing in so many ways.

I am so proud of myself!!!  Today I got on the scale and realized that I have passed the 50 lb. mark!  I have lost 51 lbs.  That is as much as my 7 year old weighs.  It is amazing, I look at my daughter and see exactly how much weight I have lost.  I have lost an entire small person.  I wrote in the questionnaire, prior to my surgery, that I wanted to lose 50 lbs. by 6 months  post-op.  That is so unbelievable!  I have surpassed my 6 month goal in only 6 weeks. 

My clothes are baggy and I look like I have baggy butt in my jeans, but I am so proud of myself.  I am discovering that I have some old shirts that I grew out of.  I am shrinking back into them.  I can't wait to get out my summer clothes and see what I cannot wear this year.  

I took the stairs!

Tonight I was invited to sit in the Three Rivers Corp. suite at the Loons game.  The box is located on the 3rd floor.  There is an elevator right before you get to the stairs, but today I chose to take the stairs.  I made it and didn't feel like I was going to have a heart attack.  I am just amazed!  Unfortunately, the loons lost tonight, but I really feel like I won.  I also walked the long way around to the stadium.  I parked across the street and I could have cut across he grass, but I chose to take the sidewalk, which was the long way.  I really can't believe that I am choosing to use the stairs and walk the long way, but I know it is the best thing I can do for myself.  I worked a 12 hour shift today and I felt great!  I can really feel the benefits of this surgery.  I am so glad that I did this.  I also can't thank Dr. Fourman enough.  Had I not gotten to know him I don't know if I would have had the courage to give this gift to myself. 

1st goal met!!

As I prepared to have this surgery the team of support people I worked with suggested that I set some goals.  It was difficult at first to think of what I wanted to accomplish.  I mean, I knew I wanted to lose the weight, but I didn't want to make every goal about a weight goal.  Yes, this journey is about weight loss, but I don't want to become scale obsessed. One of the questions that was on the questionnaire was how much weight do I expect to lose in 1 month, 3 months, 6 months and 1 year.  I answered that in 1 month I hoped to lose 10 lbs.  I have totally blown that out of the water!  I have lost 40 lbs since March 27th.  I am totally astonished!  I didn't know that was even possible.  One of the non-weight related goals that I had was to be able to wear my wedding ring again.  I have not been able to wear it since I was 3 months pregnant with Brooke.  Tim kept telling me that we could have it re sized.  I always answered the same way..."Why can't we have me re sized?"  Well, I guess that is exactly what I have done because on Monday I tried to get my ring on and it went on.  Granted, it is a little snug and I can't get it off without using lotion or soap, but I got that baby back on!  I know it seems like a small accomplishment, but I accomplished it!  I can't wait to see what 3 months brings!!!

I am so tired

I went back to work yesterday.  It felt good to be back into my usual routine.  It was nice because so many people said so many nice things.  Honestly, though, I am so tired.  I went from barely doing anything for 19 days to going back to work full force.  My lifting restriction was lifted and I could do anything that I was able to do before surgery.  Thankfully I only work 8 hour days, but I work 5 days a week.  Forgive me for such a short post, but I think I will go to bed now and sleep so I have energy to work tomorrow. 

It's a challenge

     Yesterday was a very busy day.  The kids were home from school for Good Friday and Tim wasn't working.  We were out and about all day.  The hard part is finding something to eat in a restaurant.  Not only am I restricted to what I should eat nutritionally, but I am still only able to eat soft and creamy textures.  I used to love to go out to eat, but now I find it is so much easier to just make myself something at home.  I should have packed my food and took it with me.  Good learning experience.

     Tonight we are going to Tim's Mom and Dad's house.  The whole family will be there and they are going to have pizza.  Tim's Mom was so concerned bout what I was going to eat.  I could tell she really felt bad that I wouldn't be able to have what they were having.  I told her that I would just bring my dinner with me.  She felt bad, but I could tell she was relieved.  I truly don't mind that everyone else is going to have pizza, I can see the big picture and it includes a healthier me.  When I was younger I remember people saying a moment on the lips a lifetime on the hips....That was no lie!  Now I guess I can say healthy food = healthy me. 

Starting to get back to normal....whatever normal is.

Went for my first work out since the surgery yesterday.  Couldn't do any lifting or resistance training, but could do the cardio workout.  I have to admit that I didn't work as hard as I did before the surgery.  I was a little nervous.  I am a little sore this morning, but I went and I finished my 30 minutes.  Jordan said that on Thursday we will be working a little harder.  I know that we will and I know that I can!  It actually felt good to get back into it.  Not that I will ever be an exercise junkie, but it was nice to get back to my normal routine.
 

My sense of smell is in overdrive

My family now has a good reason to think I am crazy!  I can smell everything!  This is a great thing for cooking, but will probably be a bad thing once I go back to work.  I can't wait to smell the food that everyone is eating.  My family is so patient allowing me to inhale the aroma coming from their plate. Tim thinks that I am torturing myself, but honestly it makes me feel better.  I don't feel like I am missing out.  I am loving the result of what is going on so far, but honestly I am so tired of yogurt and jello.  In only 2 more weeks I will be able to eat some scrambled eggs.  I am really looking forward to that!  Today I noticed that my jeans are loose at the waist and my undies are starting to fall down.  Probably too much information, but I'm sharing. :-)