Friday, July 27, 2012

Another dream realized!

I should have posted this earlier this week when it first happened, but as you know I am a procrastinator.  I rode my bike on Tuesday for the first time in about 10 years.  I didn't go far, but I had to see if I could do it.  It's just like they say "it's just like riding a bike.  Once you learn you never forget how."  I couldn't believe how easy it seemed.  I started out slowly and worked my way up.  It was exhilarating!  I felt free.  I felt younger.  I felt healthy.  I decided right then and there that I was going to ride my bike every chance I got.  Tonight I went again.  I went farther this time.  To the community center and back.  I am looking forward to riding at least 3 or 4 times a week until the weather is no longer agreeable. 
This was a big deal to me, but I didn't realize what a big deal this was to my daughters.  Last night they went and got their hair cut.  We have been going to Stefanie for 15 years and we know each other well.  The girls couldn't wait to tell Stephanie that "Momma went for a bike ride!!"  They were so excited for me.  They are both looking forward to going with me for a bike ride.  Hopefully we can go together as a family this weekend. 
I still can't believe how much my life has changed.  I notice people treat me differently.  I feel so good and I really can't believe that I wasted all those years like I did.  Getting healthy has been the best gift that I have ever been given.  I thank Dr. Fourman every day for giving me the tools and the opportunity to live the life that I am living now.

Monday, July 2, 2012

Today I met another personal goal

This journey has been about setting goals and reaching them little by little.  I am 9 pounds away from my next weight goal, but today I reached another goal.  This goal is not a number related goal, most of my goals are number related.  This is a personal goal.  Something that I haven't been able to do in so many years that I can't even remember the last time I was able to do this.  Today I was able to buy a pair of capris and a t shirt in the ladies department!!!!!  The ladies department, not the women's department, not the plus size department, the average sized ladies department.  Granted I had to buy the biggest size that they offer (16 capris and XL top), but it was in the ladies department.  It was just a short time ago, 16 months to be exact, that I had to buy the largest size that Fashion Bug offered (size 30 pants and 4x top).  I am in awe as I put this outfit on.  I didn't try it on in the store.  I was afraid to.  I was afraid that if it didn't fit I would cry and I was afraid that if it did fit I would scream.  I brought my bag home and set it aside for 2 hours, but curiosity got the best of me and I had to try it on.  I can't believe my eyes as I look in the mirror!!  I am actually becoming an average sized woman.  I never thought that I would be average sized again.  I'm still struggling with a distorted body image, but I think my mind is starting to catch up with my body.  This feels amazing!!  I am so thankful that I had the courage to take this journey!  This is truly an extreme make over!