Thursday, June 23, 2011
stressed and depressed
Today I feel lousy. It is only the 2nd time since my surgery that I have felt this bad. The first time I felt like this it was determined that I was dehydrated and had over worked myself. It has been very busy at work this week and I have not been able to eat when I needed to. It is a very delicate line that I walk every day. I have to eat about every 2 to 3 hours and if I don't, I feel terrible. I try to plan accordingly, by eating just before I get to work so that I can get through to about 1:00 or 1:30. Then I can get through til 4:30 for a quick break and by the time I get home I can eat again. I don't enjoy eating that many times a day, but it is necessary. When I am unable to stay on schedule my whole system is off and I feel sick. Just one day of being off will take me 5 or 6 days to recover. Yesterday there was a period of 5 hours between meals. By the time I ate I was feeling shaky and weak and I couldn't think straight. Today I am still feeling weak and I am so tired. I can't wait til Friday so that I can have a few days of to rest, relax and take care of myself. I am in need of a long vacation. The good thing is I can see a light at the end of the tunnel. We are planning a week in Mackinaw City at the end of July. I cannot wait!!